Well my tiny little MIRACLE,
I came home from the hospital today without you. I fought to keep you for 5 days. You didn’t stay with me long. I know it was a hard fight for you and you were so tiny that your little heart just gave up. Even though I feel angry that you are not here with me, I want you to know that Mommy could never be angry at a sweet little face like yours. You were fighting hard and I could feel that. So, I believe my little girl wanted to see her Mommy before she went home to rest. But like I’ve said before, you are my love and my love you will always be. No matter where you are. I need to use your fighting spirit right now in my life but it’s hard. I want you here with me so I can touch your little face and hold you little hand again. I know God will let me see you again one day but just not right now. I gave you lots of kisses to take with you. Those kisses were so you would know that Mommy is with you in spirit and I love you so very, very much. You are so special to me still, and that is why I named you my little MIRACLE. My heart is aching for the loss of you. I never imagined you heart could break so much. I am wearing the ribbon the nurses wrapped through your outfit around my wrist so I can feel like you are physically with me always. I know your spirit is with me but it is your physical loss I cannot stand right now. I don’t know how I am going to make it without you forever. I can’t stand it minute to minute. My little girl, my sweet, sweet, little girl. I miss you and I love you so much. You have stolen my heart with your quick passing through this world. My heart will never be the same.
Love and Kisses
Mommy |
