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| I Used To Give Thanks I used to give thanks but not today Today I will not be thankful in anyway. I've lost my little girl and my will to live I simply have nothing to offer, nothing to give. I don't want to see your smile today I just want to cry so let me if you may. My heart is broken cant you see So will you please just let me be. Leave me alone I am not thankful today I don't want to talk and I don't to pray. My child should have been born close to this day So what is there to be thankful for when there is just no way? Written Thanksgiving Day 2003 ©MIRAs Mommy Kahlilia |
| Be Thankful For What? Today is Thanksgiving Day but I don't care Don't even ask… don't you dare I will not come to your house for dinner Today I certainly do not feel like a winner I have nothing to be thankful for you hear How could I when I don't have my little girl near? I wonder if I will ever celebrate thanksgiving again The memories will drown me each year till no end ©MIRAs Mommy Kahlilia |
| Just Be Quiet and Let Me Be Sure you can come to visit if you wish But these days I am quiet so please respect that I have so many thoughts running through my mind But most of all I wish that I had died I just want to sleep until it all goes away I sometimes wonder how long that will take I cannot stand this pain and noise makes it worse So if you come to visit just please…HUSH!!! ©MIRAs Mommy Kahlilia |
| My EDD Today will be a hard day For you were due into this world today I lost you to deaths door several months ago But this date November 17 will always bring woe I had planned for months for my fall baby I envisioned you to look just like me but with a little of your dad too maybe I missed out on a baby shower It was all taken away by a greater power I know for sure that you would have come on this date I knew when you were conceived and for your arrival I could hardly wait But instead today I cry for you It feels like my insides are tearing too I will miss you forever… I know I will For you will remain in my heart forever still ©MIRAs Mommy Kahlilia |
| Fighting For My Child They buried her without me They did it for free They say I signed the papers and gave my consent I wasn't in my right mind when my child went I simply don't remember doing such a thing Cant they understand the sorrow death did bring? They will not make it easy giving her back to me I can never have peace if her body is not free She was buried alone thinking her Mommy didn't care If I was thinking clearly I would have been there Its just not fair they are making this so hard I don't want her buried there in that horrible cemetery yard Where she cannot have a headstone in that plot So no one will know she's there and she'll be forgot This will never be acceptable for any child of mine I know she never took a breath but her life was still divine Did you know they could not find her the first day I came to visit? It took me nine weeks to show up in that office just to sit So I will fight forever for my daughters remains I want them removed from their horrible domain I will win this fight because I know what I am doing is right I plan to fight for her with all my might I need to search for peace now in this life so I will be free My daughter should be able to rest in a place of dignity ©MIRAs Mommy Kahlilia |
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| This is the horrible unmarked plot where my daughter was burried. I had to fight them just to put this flower there so I would know where she was each day when I visited. This was not a place I wanted my child to rest forever. She has every right to be burried with dignity. |